I. Love. Paper.

I love paper.  Have I ever told you that?  I love pretty stationary, pretty cards, I love pretty little notebooks. I’m always buying them.  I tell people when buying me a gift, “when in doubt, buy paper!” I LOVE PAPER.

Today, I was looking for something in particular and as I looked, I kept finding these little notebooks stashed all over the place.  I would pick it up and see what I was writing in it.  Some were lists – to do lists, grocery lists, menu plans.  Some were sermon notes.  Some were notes from different classes I’ve taken and some journals and very few were full all the way up.

It was so interesting to see where I was in my life in different notebooks.  But usually similarly themed… searching.  Searching for connection, for my place, my purpose, for God.

I guess I’ll be searching for the rest of my life.  Maybe that’s my purpose to search, to seek… will I even know when I’ve found it?  I don’t know… 

I actually wrote that thought down in one of the notebooks I found.  It was right there… and I immediately thought, “Wow… I’m still right there.” 

A little has changed but honestly, not a lot.  What does that say about me? 😳. I’m going to go with avid learner… it makes me an avid learner… or seeker… But seeing it like that left me slightly defeated for a minute but then I felt good, like I’m doing the work and it really is life long work and I have the books to prove I’ve been doing it.

My poor kids having to do something with the books someday… who am I kidding, they will dump them straight into the trash without a glance.  Until then, I’ll see how many more I can fill.  Maybe I’ll even start filling them up all the way!! 

Until next time…♥️