Some mornings, I wake up really feeling the uncertainty in the world. Like I feel it deep. I can’t help but feel myself letting the worry seep in, the unknown begin to weigh me down. How much longer will we be safe from all that is going on? How much longer can we slide under the radar of all that has been happening in the government. When will it finally land on us?
How do we prepare for it, it being something that might or might not happen. Should we plan for something that just “might” happen? I feel like we should. DH thinks why worry about an uncertainty? Why bring in worry if we don’t have to kind of thing.
I don’t necessarily think we need to “worry” about it, but I do think we need to prepare for it just in case.
I started this post yesterday but got interrupted and never made it back to finish writing it. I was struggling anyway, with putting my feelings into words. This morning feels worse than yesterday, though.
The uncertainty somehow feels heavier today. I’m not even sure how that can be but it is.
I wish I had a crystal ball and the gift to see, so that I could see if everything will be okay. But what would I do if I saw that it won’t be? Would that help me to know how to prepare? And what if seeing that everything will be okay, made me complacent? Would that change the future?
I don’t live in fear, though this post kind of sounds like it, but I do have pockets where the worry is more pronounced and sits heavy on my chest.
You can tell from reading here that I don’t live in this fear. I still have a great time in this life, but yes, sometimes the fear or worry comes forward to remind me that things aren’t normal. Bad things are happening, darkness is falling around us and I need to take note.
I’m a part of a group where we refer to ourselves as beacons, beacons of light shining brightly for all to see.
I know there is good out there. I know there are people out there fighting hard to make things right, to stop the darkness from descending upon us. Knowing that, comforts me but I just keep wondering what I can do to help. What is my role in this? How can little ol’ me make a difference? For good, for light, for love?
I always come up with the same thing, love my neighbor, but I’m just not sure that’s enough right now. And I’m also not sure what else I should do.
I guess until I figure that out, I’ll just keep loving as best I can, trying to make a difference to the people right here, right now.
Don’t know that there was really a point to this post other than just sharing my feelings and sending them out into the void of the internet. Sometimes, that just seems like all I can do, speak to the Universe through my blog and just set the words and feelings free, release them from me, so that I can feel a little lighter, even if only for a moment…
Until next time…♥️
Simply Sherri 
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