So, originally, I thought I would just post about once a week but what the heck, this is therapy and I figure, it’s as often as I need it, so here I am again!
Yesterday was a rough day. I miss my dog terribly, and I’m already grieving my daughter moving… this empty nest thing is HARD!! It’s the PITS, as my daddy would say.
Yesterday afternoon, I needed to run an errand, so I ran upstairs to change my clothes and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror… THE HORROR!!! I hadn’t realized that I hadn’t even brushed my hair yet and it was after 4:30!! My room was in disarray, more so than normal and well, I realized just how downhill I was headed and FAST.
So, when we got home from my errand, I decided it was time for some help. So, please meet my new best friend.
What a difference! I’ve taken St. John’s Wort before and it is a great helper, but it’s been a while since I’ve taken it. A LONG while. I figured it would take several doses before I’d notice a difference but I woke up so much better this morning, even after just one dose! I woke up thinking about my sweet puppy (14 y/o) and didn’t burst into tears. I thought about his sleeping next to me on my pillow and I smiled instead.
Of course 5 minutes later when I was picking the hymns for Sunday and thought about how it was DD’s last Sunday to play for us, I was back in tears but baby steps people! I have taken my morning dose and I expect to be doing even better soon.
Don’t get me wrong, I know that there are going to be lots of tears, and there should be! She’s been my world but hopefully, my new best friend will help me get through a little more gracefully.